Ummm...

I have come to trust nothing but seclusion. What a terrible condition to be so indifferent to my own thoughts and feelings, that which of the second is non-existant; with the exception of anxiety. This happens more so than not. So then what issue is there to resolve?... Being a passive bitch? Frankly, in such a state; I've clearly no motivation to do so.

Mmm, whatever. This could take a while, bare with me please.

Blind and Lost

This past week I've felt myself slip away as stress and new anxieties settle in. I'm sassless; unorganized and frazzled.

It's as if my eye sight ceased to serve purpose and I've managed to wonder into a forest where I aimlessly stumble and reach for anything familiar but I've grown weary and this discrepance exists merely to indisposes of my conviction.

Mostly, my gaze falls to the floor, entangled in thought; completely oblivious to the world around me and then I come to realize that I am beyond bewildered. I've done so randomly for an hour while typing this rant, it's no wonder why my neck has been so distressed.

Sometimes I wonder if my distorted perception is shared... I hope not.

T.M.A.B.B.E!

So this is a recipe for truly the most amazing banana bread ever!














You will need:

• 1 3/4 cups all-purpose flour
• 2 1/4 TS double-acting baking powder
• 1/3 TS salt
• 1/4 butter
• 1/3 sugar
• 1/3 brown sugar
• 3/4 grated lemon rind
• 2 eggs
• 3 bananas mixed to pulp
• 1/2 cup chopped walnuts (optional)
  
• 1/4 cup finely chopped apricots (optional)
  

1. Set your oven to 350 degrees
2. In separate bowl sift together: flour, baking powder & salt
3. Blend together: butter, sugar & lemon rind
4. Beat in eggs and banana pulp to the butter mix
5. Add power ingredients to wet mix, beat until smooth
   
6. Fold in walnuts and apricot
7. Spray pan w/cooking or canola oil, pour batter into

Bake for 45 minutes and let cool before cutting into!
For a sugar crumb topping you will need:

• 1/4 cup Brown sugar
• 1/2 TS nutmeg or cinnamon
• 1 TBSP butter

1. Mix ingredients together by crumbling with your hand and fingers!
2. 35 minutes into baking the bread, open oven and crumble the topping with fingers to cover the top of the loaf.

When finished, it will be a beautiful golden brown!

This is one of my favorite dessert breads to make, I hope you enjoy it as well!

On Insincerity

I'm learning to withdraw from impersonal confrontations and to hold those who are precious in the highest of esteem.

"How are you"... no one ever wants an honest answer from this question, everyone is too caught up in their own egos and arguable comparisons. An insincere question fittingly deserves an equally insincere answer.
I'm fantastic, do you feel better about yourself now? They have no invested interest or benevolent concern. Why is this never asked in joyous times? Why do they ask when the response is by rote? Lastly, why do I bother? Because I truly do care.

Empyreal

You just may be the most beautiful phenomenon that I've even known.



This is no coincidence, it's a sign of cosmic proportions.

Fascinating!

I'm truly happy, everything is nearly in it's right place. I feel so blessed and feisty!

Baby Steps

I'm going to make a conscious effort to be less cynical and right now, that means proving to myself that dating and relationships aren't going to damn me to hell. The worst that can happen is that my hypothesis is proved right.

Heres to hope.